I want to first say that this is something extremely personal to me and to anyone who gets sad easily, you may want to navigate away to something cute and happy before reading on. Please be kind if you leave a comment as this is really difficult for me still and I'm sharing this in order to keep moving forward in my life.
One year ago yesterday, I received the news no one should have to hear. My partner of 13 years, since the age of 19, had passed away peacefully in his sleep. In less than two months after he would have been 34 years old. Way too young to leave the world. We met in college and quickly realized we had a lot in common. We shared our social awkwardness and drive to create art in all different forms. He was the most intelligent person I have ever met in my life and was able to do things my brain will never have the capacity to do. But like a lot of people with very high IQs, there's often mental disorders as well.
Life was going well until eight years ago when our world completely changed and never went back. His disorders he had became severe and disabling and no amount of doctors or treatments were helping him to get a life back. I became his full time care giver when I was not at work and made the unfortunate decision that I could no longer focus on me and did everything to figure out how to help him get better. Eight years go by, and when you're in a situation like that you're not aware of what it's doing to you mentally and physically. I started to deteriorate along with him and was faced with making some very difficult decisions. Unfortunately on July 27th, 2013 his heart just was unable to take the stress his brain was causing him. Now he has the peace he so much deserves.
Until yesterday I have been unable to go through anything I still had of his. I really wanted to share some artwork from when we were in school, so I pulled myself together and went through some boxes. Not many people ever got a chance to see much that he created but he wrote many books, scripts for movies, created and illustrated multiple comic books, created all the music for multiple albums, had designed and created at least 4 website before it was common for everyone to have a website, and so much more. In such a short time he accomplished more than most. He had so much more to give but now its up to me to keep moving forward and have the life I was never able to have. The life he would have wanted me to have.
Yesterday I kept to myself. Days can always be hard when you're surrounded by memories but it was important to me that I celebrated his life. I take photos and make art to help me get through hard situations so I took some photos to share.
Rest in peace Jason.